fun date idea: pay for my tattoo
So i’ve totally stopped smoking weed and drinking. It’s weird, every other time I tried I made it this huge deal how I was “quitting!” It’s been a couple of months now and I feel great. I seriously just grew out of it. I feel completely apathetic about it. I just, don’t feel the need to avoid reality anymore. The greatest benefit is how authentic my relationship is. We talk about everything and are totally present with each other. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not swearing off getting wasted ever. It’s just not nearly as fun and important as it used to be.
“It’s weird to think about how skeptical I was when I first went to the Forum, I brought a book with me in case I was bored. I immediately started railing against the leader about how they were just using me for my money. Then, when I was walking out, it struck me that I was 26 years old and I was never going to take another risk in my life. I was the one being an asshole! So I went back and said, ‘Okay, I’d like to take a risk, where do I sign?’ After that, I bought a word processor. That was my first step to being a writer.”
Chuck Palahniuk, (author of Fight Club)
in an interview with the New York Times
Over the weekend I took the landmark forum and I can honestly say the person graduating on tuesday is a complete different Jill. Not only have I discovered an internal peace, I have finally received closure for my past. I’ve stopped seeing myself as the victim of life. The thing i’m most happy for is the authentic relationship I now have with my dad. I’m free. I see life as endless possibilities and i’m excited about my future again. This is the best gift I could have ever received.